A second hail storm came through and pulverized my pumpkins. You can now see the tomatoes hanging on the vines because there are hardly any leaves left and none that are whole. The potato vines were decimated – however the potatoes themselves will be fine. The beans weren’t that lucky. I still had screen cages over the cabbage – so they have survived. Oh well. Unlike the unknown varmint that was stealing my carrots – I think it was raccoons – there is no doubt about the hail. As I said, oh well.
I need a sign across my forehead that says “I am in process.” There is no doubt that my face shows emotions or conclusions or attitudes that I have not actually come to yet. When I am in the process of getting there, or working through something, people assume I feel a way that I don’t always feel, they just think I do because of the look on my face. I need to develop a stony, dead-pan face that gives away nothing. I don’t know how to do that, but I need to find out how. My “in process” face gets taken the wrong way – way too often.
I got in trouble with my husband when I asked questions that helped me process. “Why” was absolutely the wrong thing to ask. It needed to be “How did you come to that conclusion?”, but by the time I figured that one out it was a little too late to be effective. I have a one-track mind and I know I have to go step by step to find the right answer, whereas he was an algebraic genius who went straight from the question to the answer. No fair – but then, life isn’t fair.
Life does hold great joy though, and I am getting a giant dose of it this week with my grand kids here, playing in the “Park” as they call the swing set/ playground area and walking through the woods collecting flowers and sticks for their mommies. I have heard imaginative stories from my granddaughter, watched my grandson slay several dragons (disguised as pine trees) with his stick sword, and done a lot of fine cooking with their expert help. We have all survived the occasional “time-out” and I know we all have made good memories to hold us until next time.