A Maze

Have you ever found yourself in one of those life mazes that aren’t easy to navigate? I recently took a stroll through one of melancholy and sadness. Now, I already knew what it feels like to be sad, but it was surprising to realize I had created this maze myself.

I thought I was on one career (life) path only to realize that subconsciously I was focused on another one altogether. Light bulb flash! In a truly epic – divine intervention – moment of clarity, I woke up from a recent dream and all of the pieces of the puzzle finally fit together. My depressed state was stemming not only from the loss of my comfort zone but also from the loss of direction that I thought my life was headed.

I have been reeling from a double-whammy I didn’t see coming much less recognize when it was staring me in the face. And what to do about it???

As the saying goes – admitting you have a problem is half the battle. Getting back on the horse is the other half. I didn’t even realize my horse was standing in front of me without so much as reins or a saddle. What am I doing now? Saddling up. Looking for a step stool so I can reach the stirrup. Refocusing. Embracing a new direction, and though it isn’t easy, it is the way out of my maze. Accept. Forgive. Move on.

I looked around at my friends and family and chose who’s example I wanted to follow. (We get to do that as adults.) I want to be a part of the solution and I want to be a good example for my grandchildren. I don’t want them to remember me as a whiner.

So, another winter is slowly drawing to a close. The days are getting longer and that certainly helps my attitude too. I know nature has a purpose and a need for winter, but I am a sunshine baby and I cannot wait till spring. Bring it on!

About Barbara K Tyner

A graduate of UCCS with a degree in English Lit., Barbara writes Children's Literature as well as mainstream fiction. Her popular children's series, The Badger Books, is co-authored with Barbara's daughter, Laura. Her first novel, "Wait Here, Wait There" deals with grief and Alzheimer's. Her second novel, Rhyaden, a middle grade fantasy released Nov. 2018. Gardening, exploring National Parks, Kayaking, hiking, and snow-shoeing top her list of favorite hobbies.
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2 Responses to A Maze

  1. Cherry Odelberg says:

    True words! Bring on the sunshine – but, hey, hold off on the oppressive summer heat for awhile. Either that, or get me to higher elevations.

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